21. Have you ever been on a roller coaster? YES! I love them.
22. Favorite year so far? Year? Uh...2013 lol
23. Do you consider yourself religious? Yes.
24. How do you usually dress? casual tshirt and shorts/cotton sundresses
25. Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point? Astroworld :-(
26. Would you eat sushi? yep and I have, its yum
27. Would you smoke? I used to
28. What is your favorite sport? I used to play softball, but I dont really care for any now
29. Do you believe that animals have souls? uh...yes?
30. Who did you last talk to? Russell
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Saturday, June 23, 2012
I will probably cry today
I don't even know where to start...
I have been pretty emotional lately. More so then normal. I'm tired of dealing w/ the bull$*&% from guys. I mean, they sit there texting me back and forth for days/weeks/months even and I make it 100% clear that I am not interested in having sex but its like they cant give up. Once you tell them no it makes them want you more. I had 2 guys, Ray and Kenneth, who were texting me obviously looking for one thing only. Ray has been texting since March-ish. I ignored him for a very long time after he said he wanted something casual. But he never stopped texting. Finally yesterday after he sent a text saying why don't I ever reply I told him you make everything about sex and that's not what I want. It causes us to go back and forth with me repeating myself over and over. If you like me, and you are so interested in me and aren't just looking for sex then why is it that you never try to get to know me?? We could have coffee and talk. Dinner and movie. ETC. Its not that hard. But instead you tell me how much you want me. No thanks.
Kenneth was pretty much the same thing except he got really pissed off bc I was "judging" him. Hmmm....lemme see, the only text I EVER got from you were sexual. And if I tried to text you about something other then that my text would go unanswered. It was clear to me what you were looking for. I'm not judging you. IT IS YOU.
So w/ all that and everything thing else, I have decided to quit. I'm done. Delete my dating profile. This is too emotionally draining. I run across people who are available and interested in me are douche bags who lie trying to get me into bed w/ them. Or I meet someone awesome that I like and I cant be w/ them for whatever reason. Obviously someone is trying to tell me something, so I am taking the hint.
What makes me sad about all this is I just want someone to love who loves me back(eventually). Spend time together. Get to know one another. Have fun. It just doesn't seem that complicated to me. But I guess I am wrong. Man I really didn't wanna spend my 30th bday alone...
that makes me very sad...
I have been pretty emotional lately. More so then normal. I'm tired of dealing w/ the bull$*&% from guys. I mean, they sit there texting me back and forth for days/weeks/months even and I make it 100% clear that I am not interested in having sex but its like they cant give up. Once you tell them no it makes them want you more. I had 2 guys, Ray and Kenneth, who were texting me obviously looking for one thing only. Ray has been texting since March-ish. I ignored him for a very long time after he said he wanted something casual. But he never stopped texting. Finally yesterday after he sent a text saying why don't I ever reply I told him you make everything about sex and that's not what I want. It causes us to go back and forth with me repeating myself over and over. If you like me, and you are so interested in me and aren't just looking for sex then why is it that you never try to get to know me?? We could have coffee and talk. Dinner and movie. ETC. Its not that hard. But instead you tell me how much you want me. No thanks.
Kenneth was pretty much the same thing except he got really pissed off bc I was "judging" him. Hmmm....lemme see, the only text I EVER got from you were sexual. And if I tried to text you about something other then that my text would go unanswered. It was clear to me what you were looking for. I'm not judging you. IT IS YOU.
So w/ all that and everything thing else, I have decided to quit. I'm done. Delete my dating profile. This is too emotionally draining. I run across people who are available and interested in me are douche bags who lie trying to get me into bed w/ them. Or I meet someone awesome that I like and I cant be w/ them for whatever reason. Obviously someone is trying to tell me something, so I am taking the hint.
What makes me sad about all this is I just want someone to love who loves me back(eventually). Spend time together. Get to know one another. Have fun. It just doesn't seem that complicated to me. But I guess I am wrong. Man I really didn't wanna spend my 30th bday alone...
that makes me very sad...
200 Questions 11-20
11. How many times a day do you go on facebook? uh...a lot
12. What was the last movie you saw in a theater? Titanic 3D
13. Have you ever cut off a limb? I cut my pinkie off, lol no I cut it really deep on the bone
14. Where did you get your last email from? which email acct? lets go w/ Marc
15. Favorite website? Reddit
16. Are you ghetto? no way
17. Will the world end in fire or ice? fire
18. Do you believe in the external world? like life beyond Earth? uh...idk
19. Would you cry if Facebook stopped working? no I wouldnt, then maybe people would go to google+
20. Do you have a blog? lol no....
12. What was the last movie you saw in a theater? Titanic 3D
13. Have you ever cut off a limb? I cut my pinkie off, lol no I cut it really deep on the bone
14. Where did you get your last email from? which email acct? lets go w/ Marc
15. Favorite website? Reddit
16. Are you ghetto? no way
17. Will the world end in fire or ice? fire
18. Do you believe in the external world? like life beyond Earth? uh...idk
19. Would you cry if Facebook stopped working? no I wouldnt, then maybe people would go to google+
20. Do you have a blog? lol no....
Sunday, June 17, 2012
Happy Fathers Day
I dont really have a relationship w/ my "real" dad. I have met him and tried to have long term contact several times but it never works out. He wears me out emotionally when I talk to him. He seems to be bipolar so his has extreme ups and downs. Maybe thats the alcohol or drugs, if he still uses. I wish he lived closer and was someone I could count on in my life.
But I dont think anyone who has a "normal" dad relationship can understand what it feels like. I mean how can someone just live their life w/o wanting to know/talk/be with their child. That just boggles my mind. Its 1/2 of you. You created this life. Whatever...I guess I'll never understand.
Luckily I have my gpa and even my stepdad, we have our moments tho. My gpa is amazing. He has always taken care of each one of us in the family. He is the ultimate protector. Hes the shoulder to cry on. The voice of wisdom. Yes, he is a bit crazy, getting more so in his old age. But he would give the shirt off his back to one of us. I dont know what I would do w/o my Good Ol' Gordy aka gpa.
I hope my brother, the new father, can be like gpa. His unconditional love for his family. Tough love for those of us who needed it. I have such good memories w/ him.
Happy Fathers day to those men who deserve it.
But I dont think anyone who has a "normal" dad relationship can understand what it feels like. I mean how can someone just live their life w/o wanting to know/talk/be with their child. That just boggles my mind. Its 1/2 of you. You created this life. Whatever...I guess I'll never understand.
Luckily I have my gpa and even my stepdad, we have our moments tho. My gpa is amazing. He has always taken care of each one of us in the family. He is the ultimate protector. Hes the shoulder to cry on. The voice of wisdom. Yes, he is a bit crazy, getting more so in his old age. But he would give the shirt off his back to one of us. I dont know what I would do w/o my Good Ol' Gordy aka gpa.
I hope my brother, the new father, can be like gpa. His unconditional love for his family. Tough love for those of us who needed it. I have such good memories w/ him.
Happy Fathers day to those men who deserve it.
I am currently OBSESSED w/ this song
Its really the lyrics that get me. I imagine them coming from someone else directed towards me. It seems to fit to me. But you tell me. What do you think?
That's all I wanted
Something special something sacred -
In your eyes
For just one moment
To be bold and naked
At your side
Sometimes I think that you'll never
Understand me
Maybe this time is forever...
Say it can be
That's all you wanted
Something special, someone sacred -
In your life
Just for one moment
To be warm and naked
At my side
Sometimes I think that you'll never
Understand me
But something tells me together
We'll be happy
*Refrain*
(Baby)
I will be your father figure
(Oh baby)
Put your tiny hand in mine (I'd love to)
I will be your preacher teacher
(Be your daddy)
Anything you have in mind
(It would make me)
I will be your father figure
(Very happy)
I have had enough of crime
(Please let me)
(So I am gonna love you)
I will be the one who loves you -
'Til the end of time
That's all I wanted
But sometimes love can be mistaken
For a crime
That's all I wanted
Just to see my baby's
Blue eyed shine This time I think that my lover
Understands me
If we have faith in each other
Then we can be strong (Baby)
I will be your father figure
(Oh baby)
Put your tiny hand in mine
(I'd love to)
I will be your preacher teacher
(Be your daddy)
Anything you have in mind
(It would make me)
I will be your father figure
(Very happy)
I have had enough of crime
(Please let me)
(So I am gonna love you)
I will be the one who loves you -
'Til the end of time
If you are the desert
I'll be the sea
If you ever hunger -
Hunger for me
Whatever you ask for
That's what I'll be...
Something special something sacred -
In your eyes
For just one moment
To be bold and naked
At your side
Sometimes I think that you'll never
Understand me
Maybe this time is forever...
Say it can be
That's all you wanted
Something special, someone sacred -
In your life
Just for one moment
To be warm and naked
At my side
Sometimes I think that you'll never
Understand me
But something tells me together
We'll be happy
*Refrain*
(Baby)
I will be your father figure
(Oh baby)
Put your tiny hand in mine (I'd love to)
I will be your preacher teacher
(Be your daddy)
Anything you have in mind
(It would make me)
I will be your father figure
(Very happy)
I have had enough of crime
(Please let me)
(So I am gonna love you)
I will be the one who loves you -
'Til the end of time
That's all I wanted
But sometimes love can be mistaken
For a crime
That's all I wanted
Just to see my baby's
Blue eyed shine This time I think that my lover
Understands me
If we have faith in each other
Then we can be strong (Baby)
I will be your father figure
(Oh baby)
Put your tiny hand in mine
(I'd love to)
I will be your preacher teacher
(Be your daddy)
Anything you have in mind
(It would make me)
I will be your father figure
(Very happy)
I have had enough of crime
(Please let me)
(So I am gonna love you)
I will be the one who loves you -
'Til the end of time
If you are the desert
I'll be the sea
If you ever hunger -
Hunger for me
Whatever you ask for
That's what I'll be...
Hmmm....
200 Questions 1-10
1. Have you ever peed your pants after age 8? Yes, I dont understand whats happening lately
2. Who do you have a crush on now? Its a secret
3. Would you date someone you met online? yes and I have
4. Do you wear deoderant? yes
5. Do you hate yourself? No, not really
6. Have you ever met a celebrity? I dont think so
7. Do you like tongue twisters? sure, lol
8. Do you have a boyfriend? no...damn you
9. Do you know how to drive a car? Yep and I think I am a good driver too
10. Have you ever been camping? I love to camp, one of my fav hobbies
2. Who do you have a crush on now? Its a secret
3. Would you date someone you met online? yes and I have
4. Do you wear deoderant? yes
5. Do you hate yourself? No, not really
6. Have you ever met a celebrity? I dont think so
7. Do you like tongue twisters? sure, lol
8. Do you have a boyfriend? no...damn you
9. Do you know how to drive a car? Yep and I think I am a good driver too
10. Have you ever been camping? I love to camp, one of my fav hobbies
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