Crazy Girl

I'm kinda sad. Tomorrow is Thursday and on Friday I will have to go back "home" for work. That place doesn't feel like home any more. Here, J's house, this is home. The days I spend here, my off days, are so nice. I really love being here when he gets off. This week his boss is outta town so I am brought him lunch. Oh and I still need to tell Juan. I am so nervous. But I just need to do it. I really don't wanna pay another months rent. Then theres the whole thing of packing. Boooooooo that's gonna suck. I just did this. I wish I would have known I was gonna meet J. I would have just stayed at my gpa's a few more months. Oh well. Once its done, I'M DONE!! And I'll be w/ my love. Yay.

My tummy hurts. Had a root beer float w/ a whole pint of blue bell vanilla. Ugh. Sometimes ice cream upsets my tummy and other times it doesn't. And I'm toasty. The fan is pointed at the bed. Hmmm...I seem to be kinda whiny. I guess its probably time to head to bed then. But I really felt like I needed to stop by here and just do some mind clearing.

Sometimes I'll be just going about my life, just kinda in autopilot and something happens like a lyric on the radio or something and I just kinda snap to and realize damn I'm happy. Like right now I was sitting here whining about my tummy and that I'm hot. I have Pandora on, Eli Young Band playing Crazy Girl and it gets to the line:

"Without you I'd lose my mind
Before you ever came along
I was living life all wrong
The smartest thing I ever did was make you all mine"

I look over and Chance and J are in bed, sleeping away. My 2 loves. And I know, without a doubt that that's how J feels about me. And I am so lucky, so so lucky to make HIM all mine too. And that right there, knowing someone loves you back with the same intensity is comforting. I only love 100%. I don't do love partially. Once I let myself fall and I drop my guard I'm done, you've lost me. Theres no hope. LOL And I am enjoying this so much. Our FB friends probably hate us but who cares.

Mkay I'm gonna head to bed now. Maybe read some more of the 50 Shades Trilogy.

Looky what I got...

A Smash book. I cant freaking wait to get it. Its supposed to be delivered on/by Weds. And I am having it delivered at J's house. Since thats where I'll be anyway. I've done scrapbooking in the past and loved it but it was soooooooo time consuming. Apparently these make it easier and its not so time sucking. We will see. It def had me sucked in and wanting to spend a bunch more for all 1,753 extras it comes w/.

In preparing for this book I got all my dates and info together for the J&R timeline. Everything from first date to last night when he slept over at my place for the first time. But I think I am gonna have to get some extras. Like the folders, tabs and tape. OMG. I am getting excited just thinking about it.

I really need to update my ipod. I haven't added songs to my itunes in forever. I ran outta gift cards since I didnt ask for any for this bday. But I have a bunch of songs on my youtube playlist that I need on there.

Krystals baby shower is gonna be coming up. I need to start talking to her mom and see if she wants my help. I wanted to be a hostess but apparently her mom wants to do it at the church or something, so I guess I wont be helping much. But I def wanna get some good presents. I wanna spoil this baby rotten!!

Playing House

I hate being sleepy at work. The constant nodding off is so annoying. 2 things I am looking forward to that should help w/ my sleep, #1 my schedule at work changing and #2 J and I moving in together. Right now we sacrifice sleep a lot of the times to be able to see each other, spend more time together. So sleepy sleepy.

So...yeah, we are moving in, or I should say I am moving in w/ him. I am nervous about telling my landlord tho. I am worried hes gonna be annoyed. Oh well. I need to hurry and tell him so he wont be expecting another month of rent. I dont wanna pay again. So J got us a new bed and went out today and got new sheet set too. He even asked me if I had a color preference and texted me pics before he bought anything. There was nothing to pick from really, so we settled on a brown. 1000 thread count. He also got me a house key made. Its seems everything is kinda just falling into place.

I called my mom to talk to her about our choice to move in and kinda get her blessing if you will, and she wants to meet J, so not this week but next we are having dinner at her place and we will also be having lunch w/ his mom. Meeting the mom's. Oh man. This is kinda a biggie for me. I didnt really have a good relationship w/ my ex MIL. I would really like for this one to be different. It would really make me happy. And this Sunday, depending on my schedule, he actually might end up meeting the whole family. Riley's baptism is gonna be at church, then my mom wants to have a tea? lol Yeah but we will see. I think I heard a girl saying she was going to be off already. Just gonna have to wait and see.

Meeting the families...Holy Crap!! I just want my family to like him. And to be happy for me. I mean I'm sure they will but I just want them to see the man I see. This amazing, loving, supportive man. Sigh...yeah.

So quickly back to the move. Its seems a little soon? After talking w/ some of my friends and family I decided that who cares about the time line. There is no such thing as the right time to do these kinda things. Its about what he and I want. Period. You can talk things out w/ the people that matter in your lifes but ultimately its your life. And he and I will be the ones to deal with the rewards (or consequences) for our decision.

You dont get many chances in life to be truly happy. Enjoy the moments you do get. And thats exactly what I have w/ J. Happiness. And I want to enjoy every single second from here till forever...

<3 R

That Look

You know "that look." No not the fun one. The one you get when you are in trouble w/ your partner. Hehehe. Oops. Yeah I got that look today.

So as I said I spent my days off w/ J and Danny and Donna. Yesterday he took my car to get it inspected and my oil changed. Afterwards I asked him about my car and he said everything looked good, except my tires, which we knew. I ended up staying the night and today I was going to drive home and get changed for work. As I was pulling out of the driveway I realized I had a flat.

I call J and he comes from the shop, fills up my tire and I follow him back to the shop bc he felt a nail in it. We get there and the guys start working on it while J and I are inside. I look over at my car and I see hes working on the wrong tire. J calls him in and they argue about my tires and the guys like her tires no good. J goes out there for a few and comes back, talks to Jamal (his boss) and then calls for 4 new tires for my car.
I was like uh... J turns, and gives me this look...

I know this wont be the last time I see this look but I can tell you I dont want to see it too often. J is very protective and takes things like safety very seriously. Lemme repeat myself, safety is his priority. lol And I have become one of his priorities that need to be protected. So messing around w/ bad tires and putting myself in danger is not ok.
For the next hour or 2 I repeatedly hear a sigh and when I look over hes shaking his head and looks at me w/ "that look." Geez. Its like as bad as when your parents say they aren't mad, they're disappointed. Oh gosh I'm sorry. Please stop.

But I will say that the fact that #1 he cares and #2 he just took care of it makes me feel so...happy, loved, protected, special...Theres a few emotions. He has been just more then I could have ever asked for. I dont know how I got so lucky and of course he says the same thing, but I am serious, how in the world?!? Its one in a million to find the person that seems made for you.

I know we will have bad days. I am realistic. But God answered my prayers. I prayed for my next relationship. Didnt know where he would be, or how it would happen, but I knew He did. And I thank God for bringing us together. Really. We both are so blessed.

Wedding Bells

I'm currently sitting in a dark room w/ Conan on the tv and Jonathan snoring softly in the bed. Since I slept off and on all day while he was at work I wasn't even close to being tired once he was. I laid with him for awhile and when he started to sleep I got outta bed and got online.
I came over here on Tuesday after he got off work. We decided to be lazy and just did pizza delivery. We also realized that me sleeping over is actually better for him, he gets more sleep. So I spent the night last night. My plan was to go home when I got my check and I ended up being really comfy over here so I sent him a text telling him I was staying. He came home on his lunch break, brought me lunch. Tonight once he was off we had planned on watching the debates but Danny came down and invited us to go to this little restaurant/bar called Black Jack. Donna, her daughter and Danny, me and J went and we had a really great time.
Donna and Danny are a trip. I am now apparently gonna be the maid of honor in their wedding. And Donna was so open and honest about telling all of J's stories, like how when he and I started talking Danny came home and told her, so she was asking J questions and she saw my profile and told him that I was the one. lol
*side note J is talking in his sleep, lol*
Anyway she has pretty much moved me in, has started planning our wedding and future children. J was mostly laughing it off but seemed a little tense, especially when I started kinda egging her on and said to him lets have a baby.
But after dinner, he and I did talk about the topics at hand. While I am very happy and can def see myself spending the rest of our lives together I don't wanna rush. Yes its hard to be apart and I loved being here. I enjoy being home when he gets off work. I like going to bed w/ him. But its good to miss each other. To be apart sometimes. We will get plenty of time for all that other stuff.
Plus I JUST moved into my place and I have never been independent really. I wanna get that for awhile longer.
I think our focus should just be about us and how we feel. Don't let outside voices influence us, no matter which way they lean. That was def something I have learned. We gotta do whats right for each other.
Period.

But yes I cant wait till we live together :)

Books are Sexy

So like I said 2 post ago, I am reading the 50 Shades Trilogy that J had already on the Kindle. And this post isn't gonna be about the book, well, I guess I'll just say I like it a lot. But what I wanted to write about was sharing books w/ your partner.
I have never been involved with someone who was really a reader. I mean most people occasionally like to read a book. Or they are gifted a book and decide to read it. But none have been true readers. I used to be an avid reader. You couldn't pull me away. Not tv, movies, or the computer. I always made time for my books. I always had one on me. Then I got DVR, Sims, and a job where I didn't have time to read.
When E-readers became popular, I was determined to get one and get back into my reading habit. I missed it. I have a list of books I wanna read. So when J gave me the Kindle I couldn't wait to start reading. When I first turned on the Kindle all of his books were loaded. I began to scroll thru them and you really learn a lot about someone thru the books they read.
One of the things I realized since starting to read Shades of Grey is that I enjoy sharing books w/ J. The fact that he has already read it seems intimate to me. Its a new level of sharing that actually kinda turns me on. Yes, this book is a sexual book, but I want continue to do this with him. I think its fun and something to keep us connected to one another. Like a special book club. A book club w/ benefits, lol. And not all the books have to be dirty. We could share different types, topics we would like the other to know about, or be able to discuss. Maybe something we found entertaining, anything. I really hope this is something we continue.
Tomorrow night I'll be headed over again, hopefully I will be on book 2 of the trilogy.
Anyway, goodnight, I wanna get back to my errr J's hmmm our Kindle :) Yes...ours....I like that.

Jonathan and Rhianna Sittin in a Tree....

Wow what a night. J is a great BF, just saying. First of all we had planned on me coming to spend the night like...all week. So then it rained like all day. And I HATE driving in the rain, soooooooo he came and got me at work. When I walked in to his place....



and these were waiting for me on the fireplace. Not only that but while I was changing he brought down dinner. He got me the same thing I had on our first date, including the pint of green sauce I always get when I get to-go Gringos for myself. Hes such a good listener. The night was perfect and he makes me so happy :)

I am so sleepy now tho. Up till 5:30 ish and up around 9:30. Plus the sleep was very interrupted. The newness of being in bed together....man. I am normally a champion sleeper. I still have half my shift to go and I am fighting a losing battle of the heavy eyelids.

Oh PS...he loves me. He said it himself :) If you need me I'll be off floating on cloud 9 somewhere...taking a nap!