Budget

So I made the choice to move to my gparents house in between apts so I could pay some debts and such, which was a smart and responsible thing to do. But living in my gparents house has some negatives.

1.  Kelli. Got in a huge fight with her last night. (Quickly for those who dont know, Kelli is a drug addict cousin of mine. Was my bff like 5 years ago but I couldnt put up w/ the drama she surrounds herself with so had to let her go. She has a 5 yr old, Melodi, that she doesnt have and a baby she put up for adoption.) And now shes pregnant. You know, I am not like dying to have babies or anything, more like I would just like it to happen. If God wants me to be a mommy I would love it. But its frustrating to see people like her be given the blessing to pop 'em out like its not a life. Anyway, yes big blow out fight.
2. I AM SO BORED. My gma pretty much has the monopoly on the tv in the living room until 11. So on my days off all I can do, IF my gpa isnt using the computer, is surf the web. I need my laptop. OMG. Then I can keep myself entertained.
3. I miss Chance. I really wanna keep my pupster w/ me. It was so hard to go to bed w/o him last night.

I thought I had more but I dont remember. lol Lost my train of thought.


Easter is coming. I wonder if I got the day off. I forgot to request off and so I am not sure if I made my request soon enough. It would be nice...

Oh yeah the title of this blog. The reason I am bringing this up is I am kinda stressed w/ the due dates for everything. No I dont have to pay rent. But I have everything pressing to be paid at the 1st of the month. And I am worried about making it. I dont wanna be behind or I'll never get into an apt. I need to pay off a few things so then it wont be so bad.

Lets see:
*Car Ins $100/monthly
*Title Loan(mom) $275/monthly(finance only) OR $1000 payoff
*Car $350/monthly
*Cell $272 1st month $200/monthly (minus Ronnies 1/2)
Laptop $150 1 time
Warrant $262 1 time

So my checks are about $1000, tell me what to do :) If I pay everything w/ the * I have $3 left, lol. Except, I would have cash from my brother and Russ...

Happy Rhianna

What a long and busy week!! I was on "vacation" but really I spent the entire week sorting and packing the apt. It was emotional and a hard week. But I am one step closer to where I want to be so, GO ME. I am all moved out and in my gparents house for the next month or so. I didnt expect the reaction I had to being out of that apt. Friday I felt so ... happy. It was great. And my sleep is getting better too. Thank GOD! For real. Its not 100% but its getting there. I am still in a lot of pain tho. Which sucks. If I remember to take my meds as prescribed they lower the pain levels but nothing makes it zero pain. Hmph...
Lost track of time and my evening is almost over so I better wrap it up...

Soundtrack to Your Post-Apocalyptic Life

1. Trey Songz - Can't be Friends
2. Drake - Marvins Room
3. B.O.B - Airplanes
4. Growth Mushroom
5. Spandau Ballet - True
6. Kelly Price - Tired
7. Jamie Cullum - Gran Torino
8. Black Eyed Peas - Just Can't Get Enough

Happy St. Patricks Day!!

I wish I could go back in time and remove that one week of craziness from my life. But oh well its there. I made it thru and I will always be grateful for having a man, MAN, who wouldn't quit fighting for what he thought was right. So I guess, I should be lucky it was only and week. Its in the past and that's where it will stay.


Thursday is the last day in my apt. Going to go stay w/ family for a month or 2 so I can pay off some debts *coughwarrantscough* lol. Then I figured by May or June be in an apt. Probably Pipers Cove w/ Krystal, which I am totally excited for BUT the floor plans/sq ft/price sucks. I can get something bigger, w/ a better lay out for cheaper, except Krystal doesn't live there, lol.

I am still having a lot of physically pain and trouble sleeping. I am on a 2 times a day rx for the inflammation/pain but I don't think its working. And I have a referral for a sleep study. Which I am nervous about.

Ryland was finally moved to a prison. Did I mention he signed his deal? He is eligible for parole in 2 yrs 2 months. Not too bad. I cant to get my warrants taken care of so I can see him!

Ok thats all...Trying to catch up on my google reader, so I'm off for now.
<3
Rhianna

but thats for a different day

I am a jumbled mess of emotions. I dont even know where to start. I heard that Toby Keith song on the way to work. Felt like someone was reaching out to me via radio. lol Hmmm So Kevin has successfully made a come back. I fought back for awhile but my heart ultimately won over my head. He is determined to show me that he means it. That I deserve the best... we'll see. I am not holding my breath.

I worry I have made a mistake.
This is really hard to deal with and I have so many emotions. And why do I want to be with the one that is most likely to hurt me and has lied to me?? Theres something wrong w/ me...

Memories

I read a whole lot of blogs. Some personal, some tech, some daily funny junk. One of them is Memoryglands.com. Most the time the stuff on there is things I had, or friends had when I was growing up. But bc of I love the 80's and 90's and other nostalgia based blogs/website I have seen most my childhood favorites.

2 entries in a row spurred excitement from me.

Mr Mouth

Mr Mouth was my favorite game. I remember playing for hours w/ my family. I would love to get a hold of this game again.

2 Ball Screwball

In Jr high and HS, the neighborhood I grew up in was...lower middle class. Working folks. So the kids took care of themselves mostly. Big kids looking out for little kids. The ice cream truck was the best thing for awhile. We also at one point had 3 different trucks, which was cool bc you had your different favs. My bff and I loved the 2 Ball Screw ball. It was in the blue ice cream truck, and I remember teasing the guy we'd flash him. lol

Sleepy phones

I missed both dosages of my pain reliever yesterday and I paid for it by last night/this morning. Some of the worse pain I have felt so far. I feel like such a helpless dud. Getting up and down the couch, walking anywhere, putting my shoes and socks was damn near impossible. :( I hate this. And because of all this pain I am having its really messing up my sleep. I have actually started dozing off while driving. NOT SAFETY 1ST!!! 2 close calls today. 1 w/ the cement divider and then a little later on w/ a car in the right hand lane next to me. Oops. I need to get both the pain and the sleep under control.
So after waiting months and months, to swt phones/upgrade I finally did last night. I swt from tmobile CT Motorola Cliq. (Its still on the original side are And my daddy is <--- ok see I feel asleep while I was typing?? What does this mean??) I am upgrading to the Motorola 4G Proton. Its so pretty.

Ugh I cant wait to get it.

Ok I am falling asleep gotta get up and move around...