Seriously? You have GOT to be kidding me!

Saturday, July 28, 2012

My hands are gonna fall off

So...I really cant believe my carpal tunnel has progressed so fast. It went from mild just kinda annoying pain in my wrist. Now its almost constant, numbness in the finger tips, shooting pain in the hands. I cant close my hands, open things, carry/lift heavy stuff...Its pretty bad. The only relief I get is wearing my brace which I hate. I just sent my dr a message for a referral to see an ortho. I was looking at the preferences of the hand surgeons and I have to have NCS/EMG? and braces/injections before one will even see me, thats bull! I dont wanna do injections.

OK people 2 days until I move in. Sunday and then Monday and I move in on TUESDAY!! I am so freaking excited. I spoke w/ Juan, my landlord, yesterday and he said he was making my spot on the drive way and it should be done tomorrow. So now I dont have to park on the street. Which is great bc the other 2 places I lived where I had to park on the street my car was hit. I really wanna move first thing Tuesday but my brother got called in to work until 4pm. Boooo. I did reserve a small Uhaul truck. But I think I am going to have to change it to 5. Maybe I'll move some stuff outta my car while I wait for my brother....OMG I CANT WAIT TO MOVE!!!!!

Sunday, July 22, 2012


Roku 2 XS 1080p Streaming Player

This would be a cool thing to have in my new place. Not too expensive and I could use my netflix subscription.

So pretty.

Saturday, July 21, 2012


My Music

"I LOVE emotional music. Music that makes me sad, happy, romantic, or anything really deep." Stephanie Neilson from her blog NieNie Dialogue's.

Yes NieNie I totally agree. I love to wear out the repeat button when I find a song that "speaks" to me. Music has always been a language in my life. A few chords can bring memories of forgotten loves flooding back. A perfectly worded lyric can speak to me and repeat over and over in my mind, becoming almost a personal motto. Falling in love while listening to music and search for our song. A broken heart finding comfort in powerful fighters words. Tears filling your eyes while the singers voice fills your whole spirit and just letting yourself have that cry. My body will be covered in goosebumps and I will sing along.

Right now my favorite songs and what the mean to me are:

Dustin Lynch "Cowboys and Angels" - "Not sure why her path crossed mine....accident or grand design." This is my current love song. My heart melts every time I hear it.

Little Big Town "Pontoon" - This is my happy song. I can NOT hear this song and not be in a good mood. It reminds me of toobin down the Guadalupe river.

Luke Bryan "Drunk On You" - Someone special quoted the lyrics in this song for me. So now it has a special place for me.

Sugarland "Stay" - Hmmm what can I say. "Its too much pain to have to love a man you have to share."

Kenny Chesney "Come Over" - This song once again is a love song for me. Missing my love song.

Toby Keith "Cryin' For Me" - Ah man. This song is the one that makes me so sad. Thinking about missing my gpa. I cant live w/o him in my life. I cant.

Yes I know those were all country BUT I do have a few that arent country.

Kelly Price "Tired" - This song was my anthem while I was struggling with my brothers trial and jail/prison time, my parents divorce and my own.

Mary J. Blige "Mr Wrong" - Always Mr

Owl City "Fireflies" - I hated this song at first. But on the Christmas that my mom surprised me by bailing Ryland out and he was my Christmas present, he and I drove to Houston and he told me a few months later that this song reminds me of me and being "in the free" :(

This has pissed me off beyond words

Vet says airline kicked his service dog, insulted him | Albuquerque News - KOAT Home

Seriously if this is true then someone needs their ass kicked. Are THEY retarded? For one its called customer service you dont treat customers that way. And hes a F%#@ing VET. How can you be such a complete waste of life and treat another human and a dog, a service dog, that way. Probably jealous that the dog is smarter then them.

I am so disgusted right now... omg...

Monday, July 16, 2012


16 Year old Calls Mom a Bitch - Child Abuse?

How many people have heard about the 16 yr old who got beat by his dad for calling his mom a bitch?

I just found out about it from co-workers where they were laughing and saying he deserves it and blah blah blah. So finally someone googles it and shows me the pic...

Heres a search page. I dont see a reputable news source covering it yet, so I just linked to the Bing search I did. Choose one to see a pic. Warning: It is graphic.

Now, tell me how this is ok. Dont get me wrong, it is wrong of the son to call his mom a bitch, even if she is one. And I wouldnt fault neither the mom or the dad if they got a little heated and slapped his face or hell if the dad even punched him once before regaining composure. But to BEAT a child over a child calling you a name. Thats too much. I dont care to hear any details. I dont care if the child was a problem child, or not. There was no excuse for the ADULTS in the house to not be ADULTS and remain composed. If things were so heated that it came to blows then the ADULTS should have sent him to his room until everyone calmed down. Or something. I know my dad and I used to come close to physical fights when I was a teen and so did my brothers. My dad would hit us if we were being disrespectful and sometimes we would be irrational and lose our cool, forget who we were speaking too and fly off the handle. And we'd get slapped across the face. But my dad would stop before he hit us with a closed fist, and he'd tell us to GET THE F outta his face before he whooped our ass. Then he'd go to his room to calm down too. Or he'd go out and take a ride. Something.

Anyway...thats my opinion. Whats yours?

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Yay! Par-TAY!

OMG What an awesome birthday celebration I had today!! I got up early and spent several hours w/ Kelli and Dylan. He is so adorable. I have pics.

Then around 11 I came home to get ready for my party. The living room was decorated in 30's/Over the Hill stuff. It looked so good. My momma did a great job.

The party started at 1 and we were missing some family since Kelli's placement started at 12:30. They eventually showed up. But we ate pizza, and did cake and ice cream. Then presents I really racked them up. I got from my mom and dad tupperware, spatula set, ziploc bags, aluminum, trash bags, broom/dust pan, mop, kitchen towels, pot holders, soap, sponges, and the big gift was my pot and pan set from my gma and Aunt Margie. My gma really went all out and got me a 15 piece set and its sooooo nice. My cousin Melissa and her husband passed down a knife set, and 2 different sets of dishes AND a $30 Visa GC. Krystal gave me some awesome homemade coasters, so cute. They have pics of us on them. And The Savells got me a beach bag and flip flops.

I am so blessed. It was for sure an awesome party.

After that Krystal took me out to dinner at Gringos, our fav  Mexican  restaurant and I got my fav Pollo Marisco. So yum. Then I took her to see my new place. She really liked and I got her approval to live there. lol

So work tomorrow and then off to Temple Tuesday morning. My actual bday. I need to do laundry and I'll probably head to bed early. I am feeling pretty pooped. I stayed up late the last 2 nights and then got up early today.

Mkay well I'm off to do laundry.

Here are my pics from today.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Tomorrow is my bday party

I was going to do a 29 wrap up. But as I was going thru my blog I re-read my post and it was kind of a sad year. Lots of loser guys, the Kevin crap....  Chris hasnt been terrible. I'm not sure whats gonna happen in the long run w/ him. But hes a good guy too. Real sweet and not like the other guys.

I cant believe I'll be 30 in 3 days. Seriously? Where did the time go? Can we please slow this down? Its only going to go faster and faster as time goes by. Waaaaaaaah....I dont wanna die!

Kelli had her baby. An adorable little boy. Tomorrow is placement. She wasnt due for a few more weeks but she was in and out of the hospital every few days so the dr FINALLY decided to take the baby. Hes healthy and so cute. I really worry about how Kelli is going to do after this, bc she went crazy after she placed Harmoni. I know our family will be praying for her, HARD.

A guy asked for my number today. That never happens. I was at the grocery store and he smiled and said hello when we were passing each other in the produce section. Which I was just thinking ok hes friendly. And of course I saw him a few more times and then he was checking out at the same time as me. He introduced himself (Fred? ewww really lol) and asked if it was ok to ask for my number...What am I supposed to do in those situations? I told him I wasnt comfortable giving my number but I gave him my okc profile name. So we'll see. But I mean I am not looking for a BF right now. I am taking a break. So what how does that work?

Well I'm out for now.

Monday, July 9, 2012

Bdays and more bdays

Happy Belated 4th of July. I had a good 4th. Spent the early part of the day at the park for annual 4th celebration. The once the heat became unbearable we headed over to my grandparents to swim w/ my cousins and 2 aunts. After everyone left I passed out and slept thru the fireworks, boo. Oh well.

Tuesday was Krystal, aka my BFF's, 26th bday. We didn't do anything on the 3rd but we spent the 4th together and then Sunday was her bday party. We normally combine our parties but didn't this year. Which at first I was kinda bummed about but meh oh well. I guess it works out better.

Friday at work a coworker got an email from a friend looking to rent out his garage apt. She knew I've been looking so before she even asked me, she replied to the email saying she knew someone. And w/i like 10 mins I was on the phone w/ the guy. Hes a cop and his wife is a waitress and they turned their garage into an apt for their son and his wife but then they decided they didn't want him there bc they fight too much. Sooo...his loss my gain. I went by after work and OMG its so nice on the inside. And it is only $500 including all bills (cable and internet too!!). I move in on the 31st.

My 30th bday party is Sunday. 30! Holy Cow! This year went by so fast. Well...lets see...I guess over all it was a good year. Interesting for sure, lol but I'm happy. And I am loved.
Back to the move I have nothing...NOTHING!! for my kitchen. I redid my budget and it looks like I'll be able to go but stuff!! Yay!! And get my laptop back HELL YESS. So I am proud of myself regarding my's where I'm at:

7/11 - Title $300 Cell $160 Ins $90 = $550- from my check = $550 laptop $140($120?) $430 left over for the trip, $ for the 2 weeks of gas/groceries and shopping for my new place

7/25 - Title LAST PAYMENT!!!! <$300 Cell $160 Ins $120 = $580- from check = $420 left over for a moving truck and 2 weeks gas/groceries and misc shopping for the new place

August is gonna be tight but I'll update that later. Hopefully can save some money from the left overs to get me by comfortably in August.

Seriously. I am so happy right now.

Sugarland - Stay

I've been sitting here staring at the clock on the wall
And I've been laying here praying, praying she won't call
It's just another call from home
And you'll get it and be gone
And I'll be crying

And I'll be begging you, baby
Beg you not to leave
But I'll be left here waiting
With my Heart on my sleeve
Oh, for the next time we'll be here
Seems like a million years
And I think I'm dying

What do I have to do to make you see
She can't love you like me?

Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay

You keep telling me, baby
There will come a time
When you will leave her arms
And forever be in mine
But I don't think that's the truth
And I don't like being used and I'm tired of waiting
It's too much pain to have to bear
To love a man you have to share

Why don't you stay
I'm down on my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
Don't I give you what you need
When she calls you to go
There is one thing you should know
We don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay

I can't take it any longer
But my will is getting stronger
And I think I know just what I have to do
I can't waste another minute
After all that I've put in it
I've given you my best
Why does she get the best of you
So next time you find you wanna leave her bed for mine

Why don't you stay
I'm up off my knees
I'm so tired of being lonely
You can't give me what I need
When she begs you not to go
There is one thing you should know
I don't have to live this way
Baby, why don't you stay, yeah

This song kills me every time...

Sunday, July 1, 2012 anyone out there?

So my followers...

I have 5 people who openly follow my blog
Thats them.

Mr Debt Blog - So he found me by looking for Houston blogs. And now I follow him too. And just like his name suggest thats what his blog is about.
Heather - We have been following each other off and on since the AOL Journal days I beleive. Dont really remember how our paths crossed but they did. She is a mommy blogger. 1 little girl and 1 little boy.
Krystal - is my BFF and cousin. She doesnt blog as much as I wish she did.
Ali - Another AOL Journals buddy. We have lost touch a few times but are always reunited. Pretty neat. I wouldnt say she is a typical mommy blogger altho she has the full house to be one.
Marc - My really good friend. He was the first guy ever who wanted to be able to read my blog. That really showed me how awesome he was.

I love them all. I used to have alot more on my old blog. Is there anyone here who came over but isnt following publicly? I have a ton of traffic and I'm just curious if anyone sticks around. Do you have a blog link? I would love at add some new people to my reader.

Ok I guess I'm done trying to whore myself some Night night :)

This made me feel sick