A New NSV

First I wanna start off with super awesome NSV. I can put my bra on again. lol I was having to pull it over my head, leaving the clasps connected. But now I have more range of motion back and can do it the regular way. Also I went grocery shopping for the week by myself and unloaded my car. And didnt want to kill myself or anyone else.

Kelli and her drug problem. I am so over it. I deleted her from my facebook. I couldnt take it anymore. Just like I said to Krystal and posted as my status, why does she get to be all happy and carefree while our family sits and suffers thru her addiction. I hate how her problem becomes OUR problem while she just keeps the cycle going over and over. And I know the opinion of some is that shes,and other addicts, are waste of a life and better off dead, etc, but...shes family. Damn it.

I tried a new recipe last night. Spaghetti in the crockpot. I totally didnt see how that would work but omg it was yummy. Jon prefers his meatless so I threw one chicken breast in for me, used the healthy noodles and lower fat alfredo to mix w/ the tomato sauce. I dont prefer full flavor of just tomato. Too acidy. It taste kinda like the chef boyrdee sauce except more spices. Its good.

And lastly I just wanna say, I know I say it all the time, but I really love my bf :) Hes awesome.

The Weekend is Gone :(

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So after work Friday I went straight to the Drs office for my appt w/ my ortho. My appt wasnt until 3:30 but I was hoping I could get seen earlier. I got there at 1 and I had to wait till 2:30ish. So that sucked. I didnt have my kindle or my cell bc it was dead. But I was glad to get in earlier. Dr Velez still wants me to have the surgery and we scheduled my EMG for 2/22. And he went ahead and gave me the shots. I felt the pain of the actual shot more this time. There was some numbness on the drive home but overall I was handling it well. Then all hell broke loose. The numbness started to subside and the pain started. I've heard of these cortisone shots being painful, but I didnt have issues the first time. It kept getting worse and worse. I spent several hours laying in bed crying and trying not to move my hands. FUCK THAT SHIT!! No more shots. Surgery is next. But Jon came home and made me work out my hands and I was pretty much fine by bedtime.

Saturday nothing to eventful happened this weekend. I slept in a little. Went to the grocery store for a few things. Made dinner, yummy BBQ baked potatoes. Jon and I watched a movie and FINALLY made up for all the torture during the week. lol

Yesterday was my gpa's bday party, so we drove out there. Unfortunately the party wasnt till 3! Which was when we had kinda planned on leaving. We werent able to bc we were waiting on the clothes. We were able to leave at 4. I had NO IDEA the game started early so it totally threw all my plans out the window. Got home and dropped off Jon just in time to see the kick off and I ran to pick up dinner and beer (in his truck, which I have my own set of keys for now, btw :). Had a pretty good night w/ Jon, Danny and Donna. We all got nice and not sober. Then went pretty much straight to bed after the game. I do wanna say one thing, we had James Coney Island for dinner and damn the gas. My stomach hurt so bad now. Gosh.

So since we didnt got grocery shopping, we are gonna have to go today. I hate being off my routine. But I am still staying on the diet...sorta. As best I can w/ no food in the house, lol.

OK well, happy Monday.

My Hands be Painin'!

Blasties! So sometimes things dont work out like you had intended them to. Doesnt mean anything went wrong just not the way you originally thought it would work. I didnt cook just like I said I wouldnt. And Jon came home super early to surprise me. It was like 3ish. How cool. I was totally shocked. We played Madden (he won of course) and then COD (I think?). Umm...so I suck. BUT I made progress. I was laughing so hard. I really really wish I could have seen video playback of my guy. I was having a very hard time learning the controls. I was laughing so hard. Even now thinking about how I was walking into walls and spinning in circles bc I couldnt figure out how to turn makes me lol. Jon was yelling directions at me like keep up w/ him, etc and I guess he was being attacked or something bc he yelled you suck at these games. Jeez. lol. Good times. After video games we ate ramen, I took a shower, packed our lunches and headed to bed.
I know, I know. But I was so tired. I was falling asleep by 6:30-7. I'm so lame. Tonight! For sure.

After work today I get to see my orthopedic for my carpal tunnel. Wahoo. I am so excited. My hands hurt so bad today after playing xbox. Plus my skin is all cracked and dry. I wanna talk to him about that too. I wonder if people w/ CT are more susceptible to this...whatever the F it is. It hurts. BUT I am looking forward to weighing. Bummer it will be so late in the day after eating and such. But I still wanna see. I hope I've lost something.

Welp its Feb 1st. I have gone a whole month on my diet. Go me! I think this is the longest I have lasted w/o also taking diet pills. And I couldnt have done it w/o my sweet love. I am so proud of him. He, of course, is melting away. His jeans are waaaaaaaaaaay too big. His shirts hang off him. We have bad days and we still struggle sometimes but the good days out number the bad. We are on our way to being even sexier then ever :)

SO TGIF people. Have a good day!!

I Rarely Use Apostrophes

Feeling much better. Whatever the issue was I ate eventually and was fine. So thats good. Never had a chance to leave work early yesterday as much as I really wanted to go home. I'm freaking sleepy. I miss Jon. lol I know, we have more time together now then ever, but...our evenings go so quickly. First off his schedule isn't set. Some days hes home at 7 and the next day its 8:30-9. And we both want to spend some time together before we head to bed. We end up pushing it. AND if theres ever time for some cuddles I am def up past my bedtime. Its doesnt help that someone...not gonna mention any names, JONATHAN E. H. decided to get some one all worked up @ 11pm and then tell me to go to sleep. Grrrr. Yeah, maybe tmi for my blog, I try to keep things family friend but ummm I was left hanging! Well...doesnt matter, there will be no dinner cooked tonight, he better eat a snack wrap on the way home and do some stretches...thats all I'm saying. lol

Came out to ice on my car this morning. Took forever to defrost. The cars closer to the house didnt have any. Stupid. I wanna park in the garage tho. Thats where cars go. Ugh I cant wait till we move. Whether I park in the garage or not. Speaking of which I'm having an internal conflict with Valentines Day. Since we are moving, we are saving our monies for deps and stuff. Well Valentines is coming up and its our first one. I want to tell J he doesnt have to worry about getting me anything. Maybe we can postpone our V-day or celebrate something else once we move in. BUT the other side of me is like UM its our FIRST V-day. I want something. lol So, J figure that one out. :) What I really want is this new necklace trend Living Locket. They are super cute.

OK well I hope this day goes quickly. I am ready for Friday.

Gross Post

You know what I hate?
Waking up to the feeling of having to puke.

I'm sure no one enjoys that but seriously, its the worst wake up ever. And thats what my morning entailed. My stomach was a firey pit, my palms were sweaty and all the color had drained from my face. At this point I am having an internal convo, please dont throw up, oh GOD please please please. I couldnt tell if it was heartburn/reflux or if I had a bug or something. It wasnt the typical heartburny thing I sometimes get (which btws I seem to have mostly kicked it w/ my diet). The convo continued, I cant miss work. I dont wanna miss work. Of course I would get sick right after a old absence fell off. I'm trying to clear out my old occurrences.

This goes on for awhile and I knew for sure I was gonna die. Luckily it passed and I am now sitting at work. I feel ok. Mostly. Of course I wont be eating anything today. lol Or not till I am starving.

So I hoped you enjoyed my morning, lol. Besides that last night I decided I wanted to learn how to play Madden. I played one came by myself. I feel like I did good for it being my first time. Of course Jon would kick my ass when we play together. But I'm a good sport. I just think it will be fun to play together...until I get really good and then I'll kick his ass. Hehehe.

Alrighty, I have a headache and my throat is killing me now...stupid stomach!

5 WHole Months

Today is me and Jons 5 month anniversary. Wow. Feels longer. Nothing planned or expected for this. Just wanted to acknowledge it. We stopped celebrating the month anniversaries at 3. Now maybe the 6th month we'll do something small. Mainly bc thats how long we were supposed to last. lol Ugh loser.

Last night J did text me to let me know the #1 house that we wanted is showing as option pending. Boo. We are gonna go look at houses next Sunday. We were gonna go this Sunday but its my gpas bday party. I am dying to start looking tho.

My carpal tunnel is coming back. I am shocked at how fast it has returned and almost completely at the point to where it was when I first got the cortisone shots. So I need to reschedule my EMG and consult w/ the surgeon but until then I am gonna go see my ortho. Hopefully I can get the shots again. But I also need to discuss a new problem w/ him. Dont know if its related or not. When I put any weight on my forearms and they arent moving, when I finally move they hurt EXTREMELY bad. Thats probably sounds confusing. But for example when I sleep on my stomach I prop myself up w/ my arm. So my arm is holding up weight and are stable/not moving. When I try to change positions its like OMG FUCKING FUCK SHIT ASS BALLSACK.

Yeah.

That bad.

LOL So anyway need to talk to him soon.

I had a dream last night that I finally had a chance to weigh myself and I was over 400lbs. As in I gained lots of weight instead of losing it. Ugh. I really am curious to know if I have lost anything yet. I did check what the calorie/fat was in our dinner last night. And they are low cal/fat. And I could make them even lower fat if the store would ever actually have the reduced fat cream of chk soup.

Alrighty. Well, today should be a good day. Cant wait to see my love and give him lots of anniversary kisses. lol

Our First Weekend.

After getting off work Friday afternoon, my mom called to let me know that first off, my gpa was confused about the procedure. It was just exploratory. They put a camera up in his heart to look around. The dr said there was good news and bad. Good - my gpas heart itself is in good shape, his overall health is good and his lifestyle is still active. Bad - he will need several new stints, an artificial valve replacement and this would require open heart surgery. She wanted him to stay in the hospital, she sent a consult to the cardiac surgeon, and anticipated the surgery complete w/i 72 hours. Well... the surgeon didnt agree. She wants to try and treat w/ meds first. So we will see how he responds to meds. He was discharged and went out to eat w/ my aunts family the same night. Craziness.

Saturday was Ronnies 22nd bday party. It was a blast. Most the family was there. And all the babies. OMG. ALL THE BABIES!!! Riley and Everett. Yay!! It was so nice to finally be able to go to a function. I wish Jon could have come but Saturday afternoons dont work for him bc of work.

Saturday night was cheat night. We were gonna get Olive Garden but it seems like the one in Katy doesnt actually do take out. Lame. So we had Fazolis instead. And that was freaking good. We watched Ted which was pretty funny. And then some how got to talking about politics which was a huge mistake. I felt like a complete bitch and a terrible GF bc I attacked Jon's beliefs. Ugh. Plus I hate politics and it gets me all worked up to point where between Saturday night and Sunday morning (where we started talking about it AGAIN!!) I cried 2 times. Shit. We kinda took a break from each other. He went and played video games and I stayed in bed, then got on the comp in the bedroom until he came in looking for me after about an hour. I hated that. I dont like feeling like that w/ my love.

Later we had our dinner and went grocery shopping for the week. We kicked that grocery stores ass. lol I made a list and torn it in half and went for a divide and conquer approach (there, is that better J?) We were back in the truck in 30 mins. After we got home we watched October Sky, which was very good. And then watched Summer Rental, which was the typical 80's family vacation rental comedy. So typical. But funny.

Then it was bed time, unfortunately we both seemed to have hard a time falling asleep. His tooth was bothering him and I apparently had sympathy pains bc I woke up w/ a toothache. Lame.

Welp. Happy Monday.