|Saturday Afternoon w/ my love|
Well...after thinking it over and over and over. I finally realized that I had to move forward w/ Kevin. He makes me happy. I know what he did some people think they could never forgive him and that I should move on, but...I cant. I love him. I want him in my life. And I want to be in his and Johnathan's. Period.
Saturday I met him at his work for a few hours then he came over. We talked some more about "us" (his dad offered for him to move out to Chicago) and basically I said that I cant be emotionally invested in this relationship if we aren't moving forward and I felt like I should just prepare myself to lose him. He said he wanted to be here w/ me. I asked if he would like to slow down a little and he said yes. THANK GOD!! I mean was that so hard. Thats all he had to say. I wouldnt have left him, I wasnt even the one who was rushing things. We are going to continue the relationship the way it is. I am going to get an apartment in Pipers Cove, where my bff lives (HEY BFF!!! ARE YOU EXCITED!!). Just slow down and enjoy each other. Get to know more detailed info about us.
This Friday I am finally meeting Johnathan. I am so nervous and excited. I wonder if Kevin has already planned it out yet. If the weather is nice maybe we can go to the beach and fly a kite. Johnathan has been begging for a kite, so that will be fun.
Ok well I need to get to my Sunday google reader time. Just wanted to update this first b4 I got to tired.