Whole Lotta Nothing

Ugh. TGIF. Finally. Why did this short week feel so long. Jeez.
The garage guys are finally done. Thank goodness. He came over again yesterday to finish sanding and painting the drywall and now its 100% complete. Now we just need to roofers to come. And the sidewalk people but thats not our problem. I wont have to be involved in that at all. We got a letter from the homeowners asshole league of people try to control everything association saying the sidewalk needs to be leveled. Thank GOD we rent. Get all this stuff repaired, then buy it, lol.
I made the smores dip last night. It was yummy and ridiculously sweet. Jon loved it.
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I dont have much else to say today. Purple. lol I'm sleepy. Mkay ttyl.

Cross Wall

Look at my pretty cross. Jon got that for me for our anniversary. We are gonna do a cross wall and this is perfect to start it off.

So, I am annoyed bc I was planning on doing something small for Jon yesterday. I wanted to get him a gift and make a dessert for us, but while I was at work the garage fixing guy called and said he could come. Fine. I told him give me until 3:15 and I'll be able swing by the store to get what I need. Well...that didnt work out like I'd like. Basically there was bumper to bumper traffic 1/2 home, I have such horrible road rage, this is not good for me. So no time to go to the store. 

Just overall I was pretty grumpy and in a funky mood, until Jon got home, where I vented to him and got it off my chest. I am feeling pretty disgruntled at work and I had someone call me out on it. Then my surprise was cancelled, I had to sit around for the garage guy. And Chance was being a butthole.

BUT!

Once my love got home, we had dinner and I relaxed. We watched some tv and then headed to bed. So my day ended well. All I really needed was to be in his arms. Makes me happy.

Guess thats about it for now. 2 post in one day. Fancy :)

Why?

You know what really bugs me? What really grinds my gears? lol Men (and women I guess) who just completely disrespect another persons relationship. Such selfishness. This is gonna piss Jon off, sorry babe, but I usually handle these issues myself and dont talk about it. Not bc I have something to hide but bc there isnt any threat to Jon. Anyway since I have "only" been off the market for 9 months, I still occasionally receive messages, usually emails, from guys. These men claim to be friends, usually someone who I maybe starting talking to when I was single but nothing came from it. They'll message me and ask how I'm doing? Am I enjoying my house? Hows work? etc. Then after some back and forth the topic seems to switch. All of a sudden its slightly more personal. Maybe we should have coffee? Umm yeah I dont think going to meet you would be a good idea. The conversation topic may shift again back to a safer place for awhile and then starts the real crap. Basically trying to convince me that I need to share....myself...with them. I dont get rude w/ them but I just let them know I am happy where I am. I dont need to cheat. This goes back and forth for awhile, until they finally relent and retreat. Until next time when it happens all over again.
I guess I'm naive bc they do the friendly stuff first so I engage them, instead of just ignoring them. And then when they cross the line I dont cuss their ass out like I should. Idk I guess its my fault for not stopping it all together. I need to work on that...

Reminiscing

Today marks the 9 month anniversary of me and Jon's 1st date. It feels like its still brand new and like we've been together forever at the same time. I will always remember that day. The way I felt, the nerves. Oh goodness.

The 2 pics above are from getting ready that day. Aug 29. The mirror pic was trying to decide on jeans or slacks. And the one to the right is when I was at Gringos waiting for him to get there.

So lets recap the day shall we.

He asked me to dinner and we planned for Weds night at Gringos at 7:30(? or was it 8? I'm thinking it was 8). Anyway, so that day Krystal invited me over to swim and at first I was hesitant bc I didnt wanna be all sleepy, but she convinced me. We went swimming in her apt pool and I just didnt wanna get sunburnt. The 2 of us talked about Jon and the date, my expectations, what to wear, etc. We swam for awhile and I left her house w/ a few hours to get ready. PS I was sunburnt.

I got home and started getting ready. I remember being nervous but not overly so....at first. I was ready early and left early. I wasnt sure how long it would take me to get there. Well, it ended up being a pretty quick drive. So I text my mom and Krystal while I waited. The anticipation was killing me. He finally texted that he was there so I got outta my car and waited. I think that moment was the worst as far as nerves went. Watching him walking up to me must have been worse for him tho. lol

Dinner was nice and the conversation went relatively well considering it was a 1st date. Afterwards he walked me to my car and I remember freaking out on the inside wondering if he was gonna kiss me or not.

He didn't.

As soon as I got in my car I started texting everyone and facebooking too. A good date needed to be shared. I was glad to have had the first one outta the way and was eager to talk to Jon and see what he thought. And of course he thought I was the bee's knee's, lol.

The rest is history.

I love him so much and I am so glad we both took a chance on online dating. Its not the glamorous love story but I feel like anytime 2 people in a city as big as Houston w/ no ties thru work/family/friends/etc meet and just hit it off so well, are so blessed. It makes it seem like someone had a hand in it. How ever it happened, I'm just glad hes all mine. I struggled as a single woman. I wanted so badly to be respected, loved and treated how I felt like I deserved to be treated and Jon has done that and much more from day one. His charm and old fashioned ways swept me off my feet. 

Thank you Jon for being a real man. (Or maybe I should thank your parents.) And for loving me. For wanting to be better for me. For wanting to do and give me so much. Happy Anniversary. I love you!!

Good Weekend

Now thats what a weekend should be. I got off early on Friday and took a nap until my dr's appt. I went ahead and set up an appt with my pcp for my sleepiness. I just wanna say Dr Yee w/ Family Medicine for Kelsey Seybold is really a great doctor. I am technically (if you believe the terms) morbidly obese (and btw I hate saying that bc it sounds so ugly but drs use it soooo....) BUT he doesnt make my weight all my problems. Yes, he believes weight can contribute to things, but he said 3 things that made me so happy/good to hear from a dr. 1-People dont choose to be overweight 2-Drs are mean to overweight patients 3-Genetics + bad choices are the reason, not just lazyness and poor diet.
Halle-freaking-lujah! So he referred me to a pulmonologist for a sleep study.
Anyways, so Saturday I cleaned and slept. I would clean a little then fall asleep. Clean and sleep. But I had to get the house ready for Barbara. Later that night we threw all our pillows, which we have 12 of, on the floor in the living room and got cozy, watched a movie. Its was cute. I should have taken a pic. Sunday morning, Jon went to the grocery store while I finished up the kitchen. He grilled steaks and pork chops, plus we had beans, mac&cheese and steam veggies. It was a nice Sunday.
Yesterday he had to work and I had to work in the evening so I spent my day playing Sims. We now have a toddler son named Dodge, a baby on the way and our daughter is a teenager. lol And we are fixing to age up to elders in 8-9 sim days. Its getting very hectic w/ all the people to control/manage in the house AND the house is getting kinda small. I dont wanna move us but I might after this baby. There is a possibility that this pregnancy could produce multiples. Oh...joy.
After work Jon surprised me when I got home w/ a nice little treat. We enjoyed some us time before finally heading to bed around 10:30. And I actually slept thru the night....BUT I woke up 15 mins before my first alarm and couldnt fall back asleep.
And now, here I am at work again. Starting another week...
Is it Friday yet?

Don't Forget to Remove Fridge Magnets :)

I finally finished the last book in the 50 Shades trilogy. So good. I am bummed its over. Well, I always feel that way after a book. I cant wait for the movie.
I think I need to make a drs appt to discuss my sleepiness. I don't like it. I am sleepy all the time. Not sure what we can do about it but its time to start it figuring that out.

Hmmm...

Barbara, Jon's momma, is coming over Sunday. So I'll be cleaning Saturday. House isnt too bad, thank goodness. Just need to sweep mostly and straighten up the kitchen table. That and the island turn into our catch all thru out the week. Also need to figure out food. Jon is supposed to be grilling for her, so we just need sides. I think we have stuff already, some au gratin potatoes and some steamed veggies would be good.

Monday is Memorial Day. Originally Jon was supposed to be off. But now he has to work till 3:30 and I have to work at 3:30. Lame. Now we wont get to spend anytime together. That sucks.

Alright, well, I guess I am done. My brain cant think of anything exciting to say.
Happy Friday!

I didn't Choose the Simlife, the Simlife Chose me.

Man, I passed out last night on the couch w/ Jon. I barely remember going to bed. I am always sleepy but I was even more so last night. Fell asleep around 8:30, he woke me up around 9:15 to go to bed. And I was pretty much out again once I was in bed. And I finally slept thru the night. Now just have to go to bed at 8:30ish every night, lol. Yeah right.
So, as I mentioned before I bought Sims 3 and Jon and I both play. Well last week I made a Jon and Rhianna sims, and I built and decorated our house just like it is in real life. I even made our sims chubby, lol. We have been playing our sims a little and yesterday I played for awhile when this happened:

LOL They did start off as bf/gf living together, but she was getting hit on and it was pissing off Sim Jon, lol. And sometimes they wouldn't sleep in the same bed and stuff. So I let them get engaged and once they are engaged they wanna get married so I went ahead and did that too. It progresses like real life so once they were married he wanted to try and have a baby. They woohoo-ed and got pregnant the first try with a baby girl.

 Heres Jon after Rhianna announced pregnancy. Hes feeling her belly. lol So cute!! I love it!! The baby actually even came out cute, cause sometimes they aren't. You dont get to have any control over the babies looks like you do designing at the beginning of the game. We named her Rylynn Grace. Which is a name I want for a girl in real life, lol.

Anyway yeah, I like playing. Nothing else really interesting happening. Obviously bc I am blogging about my sim life.
Have a good Thursday.

Ugh Lets Just Forget Yesterday

What a long stressful evening I had.
Literally 5 mins before I got off work Jon texted me about a work issue and that he was going home. I knew it was bad when he was going home. The day had already been dragging on and on and that didnt help at all. Those last 5 mins were the longest of my life. I just wanted to get out of here and get home. When I finally made it home I just tried to keep Jon calm and from stressing out as much as possible. Of course thats a hard job. The circumstances surrounding everything was the worst part and Jon was so mad.
But by the end of the night everything had been worked out and was fine and back to normal.

So that pretty much took up the whole night.
I did make a new recipe, but I didnt take any pics except the ingredients.

I made Chicken Lasagna. It was pretty yummy. Except... Sigh...except the condensed milk and ranch wanted to seperate/curled. I still used it and it was fine but I didnt like the way it looked. Cooking w/ an electric stove made it so hard to bring the mixture to a simmer but w/o boiling it. Darn near impossible.

Anyway, I think we will just have this for dinner tonight since we didnt have much of an appetite last night. But I need to go. Happy hump day y'all!

Moore, Ok

I didn't blog this morning at first because I was just so overwhelmed after looking at the pics from the tornado's in OK. Have you seen these? I don't watch much news, I mostly listen to updates on the radio, see headlines online, so at first I hadn't seen the devastation. But this morning I needed to look.

I couldnt stop the tears. I'm not sure why one thing effects me so strongly and the next not so much but this was just wow. Seeing the faces of young kids and imagining how they must feel. The pics that capture the relief on the faces of parents as they run to their child. Aerial photos of neighborhoods leveled. Where there once was houses and people and their lives, now just debris.

Where do you begin? The clean up seems endless, impossible. What a hopeless feeling. The media will spotlight it for awhile but then move on. And they will be left alone to finish piecing back their lifes.

My heart goes out to the everyone affected. The families of families. The parents who lost children, the children who lost parents. Lovers lost. Sisters and brothers. Grandparents and cousins. Friends and coworkers. Neighbors. And of course the pets. The poor animals. Cats and horses. Dogs and hamsters. It just impacts so much. I think I would want to just break down, or leave. Start over somewhere else. But communities always pull together and with the help of volunteers rebuild.

Keep praying for them. The victims, the responders and the volunteers.
For strength. For encouragement. For healing.

If you are looking to contribute and want to be sure 100% of your funds go to the right place I highly recommend checking out UMCOR.

Your support is needed. 100% of your donation will go to those affected by devastating tornadoes. You can also make an immediate $10 donation, text the word RESPONSE to 80888. 

Nosy Part 2

• 54: Ever eat a pierogi? No but I want to
• 55: Favorite type of fruit pie? Cherry...no lemon...
• 56: Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? Teacher, Astronaut, Plastic Surgeon
• 57: Do you believe in ghosts? yeah...sorta
• 58: Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? yep
• 59: Take a vitamin daily? no
• 60: Wear slippers? in the winter I do, speaking of which my fav slippers were destroyed by the idiots dog
• 61: Wear a bath robe? yup
• 62: What do you wear to bed? that private, lol but it varies
• 63: First concert? The Cranberries
• 64: Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Target
• 65: Nike or Adidas? Nike
• 66: Cheetos Or Fritos? Cheetos
• 67: Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? hmmm sunflower seeds
• 68: Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? nope
• 69: Ever take dance lessons? yup
• 70: Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? owner of a successful autoshop or 2
• 71: Can you curl your tongue? yes
• 72: Ever won a spelling bee? lol no
• 73: Have you ever cried because you were so happy? yes I have
• 74: Own any record albums? I do
• 75: Own a record player? nope, lol
• 76: Regularly burn incense? I used to
• 77: Ever been in love? currently
• 78: Who would you like to see in concert? TIM MCGRAW
• 79: What was the last concert you saw? uh...
• 80: Hot tea or cold tea? cold
• 81: Tea or coffee? depends, morning coffee, otherwise tea is fine
• 82: Sugar or snickerdoodles? ewww
• 83: Can you swim well? yes, very well
• 84: Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? yes
• 85: Are you patient? ummmm I can be unless I am in a car
• 86: DJ or band, at a wedding? DJ
• 87: Ever won a contest? yeah the ones where you guess how much is in a jar
• 88: Ever have plastic surgery? nope
• 89: Which are better black or green olives? vomit
• 90: Can you knit or crochet?nope
• 91: Best room for a fireplace? oooo bedroom
• 92: Do you want to get married? yes
• 93: If married, how long have you been married? -
• 94: Who was your HS crush? My crush? IDK
• 95: Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? not really
• 96: Do you have kids? nope
• 97: Do you want kids? yep
• 98: Whats your favorite color? pink
• 99: Do you miss anyone right now? always

Monday, Monday

Gosh. Its Monday already. Blah. What a bummer.
Friday night Jon came home in a funky mood. He was feeling stressed about $$. Of course, whats new. But he was feeling like he cant give me or do all the things he wants for me. Like let me quit my job (since I havent been happy lately/also btw this isnt something I am asking or expecting of him). All of this is stemming from the fact that we aren't saving money. When he was single he had $$ in savings and always have lots of $$ left after paying bills. Now his savings was wiped out and that "buffer" of extra $ is gone too bc of the issues w/ Danny and Donna. So when we started out alone and in the new house we didn't have anything extra. We have only been in that house for 3 months. It doesnt just get perfect overnight, and we are just starting out. We are better off then like anyone I know who is just starting out couple wise. (single is a diff ballgame) He expect 2 incomes to mean more money. 2 incomes mean more expenses. We pay our bills on time. We have money to put gas in our vehicles, food in the fridge and a little left over. We cant fix the savings over night but we can slowly build it back up. Over the next few months to a year we will have expenses that end so that will add to our left over $$ and can put more into savings.
Saturday I did nothing. I tried to catch up on my dvr and ended up crashing over and over. I couldnt stay awake for nothing. Finally I took a bath around 5 and got ready. Jon and I had a much needed date night. We just needed to get out of the house. I wanted to go to the beach but Jon was too tired. So we went to our little Mexican hole in the wall place and had a few drinks and dinner. It was nice and Jon was a little intoxicated. lol
Sunday morning we got up and went grocery shopping first thing. It was nice to get that outta the way early. We got a ton of groceries and restocked up for lunches too. We did spend the most we have spent so far. But if we stay on it and go every week it wont be so bad. After grocery shopping we cleaned the kitchen, did laundry and then Jon cooked for me. For the first time!! He grilled steaks, and we had beans and mac&cheese too. It was yummy. He'll have to cook more now.
Nothing else too exciting happened. And now its Monday. Blah.
Better get to work. Its getting busy.
Happy Monday, y'all!

Nosy

• QUESTIONS NOT USUALLY ASKED:
• 1: Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? closed
• 2: Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? not usually, unless its something nice, otherwise I dont need tiny bottles of pantene
• 3: Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? no sheet actually
• 4: Have you ever stolen a street sign before? lol yeah
• 5: Do you like to use post-it notes? yea
• 6: Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? YES!! way too often
• 7: Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? neither...I guess bees
• 8: Do you have freckles? yeah
• 9: Do you always smile for pictures? I try to
• 10: What is your biggest pet peeve? slow drivers in the fast lane
• 11: Do you ever count your steps when you walk? no
• 14: Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing? lol yeah
• 15: Do you chew your pens and pencils? eww no, germs
• 16: How many people have you slept with this week? lol next...
• 17: What size is your bed? king
• 18: What is your Song of the week? Stranglehold Ted Nugent
• 19: Is it okay for guys to wear pink? yes
• 20: Do you still watch cartoons? sometimes
• 21: Whats your least favorite movie? anything historical or action
• 22: Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? I probably wouldnt bury it
• 23: What do you drink with dinner? gatorade sometimes soda
• 24: What do you dip a chicken nugget in? ranch
• 25: What is your favorite food? nutella
• 26: What movies could you watch over and over and still love? Dazed and Confused, Pretty Woman
• 27: Last person you kissed/kissed you? Jon
• 28: Were you ever a boy/girl scout? yes
• 29: Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? probably
• 30: When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? last year to my brother
• 31: Can you change the oil on a car? yep, by taking it to my bf's shop lol
• 32: Ever gotten a speeding ticket? yes
• 33: Ever ran out of gas? hmmm no
• 34: Favorite kind of sandwich? turkey original from Schlotsky's w/ no black olives
• 35: Best thing to eat for breakfast? egg sandwich
• 36: What is your usual bedtime? 11
• 37: Are you lazy? yeah
• 38: When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? Something different every year, I've been a cat, cheerleader, dont remember any others
• 39: What is your Chinese astrological sign? Dog
• 40: How many languages can you speak? 1
• 41: Do you have any magazine subscriptions? nope
• 42: Which are better legos or lincoln logs? man....legos
• 43: Are you stubborn? psh NO!
• 44: Who is better...Leno or Letterman? Conan
• 45: Ever watch soap operas? eww
• 46: Are you afraid of heights? no
• 47: Do you sing in the car? yes
• 48: Do you sing in the shower? not usually
• 49: Do you dance in the car? yes
• 50: Ever used a gun? yep
• 51: Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? hmmm like 5 years ago for the church directory
• 52: Do you think musicals are cheesy? not all of them
• 53: Is Christmas stressful? it can be but I try not to get wrapped up in the stress

After getting off work went straight home to play Sims. I was dying. I wasnt able to play Tues or Weds. But I had a plan. I wanted to make me and Jon and build our house.

Hole.

E.

Crap.

But w/ Jons help, once he got home, we were about to finish it. It looks so good. Of course there were a few little tweaks I had to do to make it work w/ the sims, but not too many actually. I will get some screen shots so y'all can see my hard work. And Jon and I as sims is too funny. Whats even weirder still is when they went to watch tv and eat dinner they sat in the same spots Jon and I do in real life. 

So we are pretty awesome. lol

Nothing else to exciting. I am starting to feel better. Getting outta my funk. Thank God.I was feeling so yuck. No fun. Not doing anything exciting this weekend. Just clean and grocery shop.

JON!! We are shopping on Sunday. No matter what. No excuses. Lets just get up and go first thing in the morning so we can spend the rest of the day laying around. Mkay? :) 

Alright. Thats about it. Have a great weekend you lil nug munchers!

Birchbox Reveal May 2013

Yay! Its here. My Birchbox.

Do you get one? Do you know what it is? I never see any bloggers for the Birchbox. I have seen other bloggers blogging about other monthly beauty boxes.

Anyway so yes, it is a monthly beauty box sampler. I have been subscribed for, hmmm... about 11 months, i think. It cost $10 a month (less if you pay in 3/6/12 month plans) and you do a short survey on skin type, hair type, etc. Then once a month you receive an awesome box in your mailbox like this:

Once you open the outer pink box you see the cardboard box:

This one actually contains the goodies. I love getting this box every month. I have had some pretty neat things  inside. So open up the lid:

And the first thing you see is a little postcard sized message from the staff of Birchbox. Its usually about the theme of the box and what you will find under that pink paper.

 Under the pink paper I see a smaller box, which is common, usually has some interesting things inside, a pen, a small tin and a hair product sample. Lets investigate further:

 The May 2013 Birchbox contains:

1 Acroball Purewhite hybrid ink pen by Pilot

COOLA Classic SPF 30 Cucumber Moisturizer for Face (the blue tube)

Cargo Water Resistant Blush (in the tin)

Marvis Toothpaste - Travel Size (in the green tube)

Miss Jessie's® Original Jelly Soft Curls (pink and white in top left of pic)

And here is the shade of blush they sent. Its called Bali. Look at my chubby hand and fingers, lol.

Overall this was a decent box. I am most excited about the pen and toothpaste. I will def use the hair gel and sunscreen. The blush...maybe. I am not a real big makeup girl. And even when I do wear it I dont use blush or eyeliner.

Anyway, cant wait till next months box :)

Cutest Baby Ever

So I was kinda sorta being nosy the other day and saw an email Tommy, Jons dad, sent to Jon. It was a picture of Jon. As a baby. Omg. I actually made a squeal. Like out loud. I think I even said omg hes so cute. He has the biggest eyes, red red hair and the fattest cutest lips ever. Well anyway I know you wanna see him.

Ugh. SO stinking cute. Can't get over that face. Ok I want babies now :)

I got a new phone yesterday. New for me at least. I found the phone I wanted, but I wasnt eligible for an upgrade yet. So I started looking at a way to get it cheaper. I found an ad on CL and bought it yesterday. Its the HTC Evo 4G LTE. lol Basically its the same phone as Jons. But for Sprint. I really like it a lot.

I think its time for me to put my feelers out for something else. I think part of my problem w/ being unhappy is stemming from work. I'm not gonna jump ship, I need to find something comparable to this. 40 hrs, insurance and same (or more) pay.

Anyway, sorry for the late posting. Had an interesting morning w/ co-workers.

Flip Flop

I think of a million different things to talk about when I get here in the mornings but once I sit here w/ the cursor flashing I draw a blank. Its like I am going thru a writers block. Over a blog. Dumb. Anyway lemme just try and get thru this today.
I've just been in so much pain off and on from my toothache that my brain isnt really there. Plus for some reason I have been feeling really emotional. I dont know if its just like...hormones or if its something I need to get help for. I dont wanna be on drugs but maybe just need to see someone neutral I can talk to to get things off my chest. Jon is a great listener but he feels like everything needs to be fixed. Sometimes I just need to talk.
After work I went to the shop to have my oil changed. Hung out there for awhile until Jon released me, lol. But by the time I was leaving my my tooth was hurting pretty bad and so was my stomach bc I took some damn ibuprofen like my dentist so wisely prescribed me. I wanted to play Sims but that wasnt gonna happen. I got home, took a tramadol and then passed out. I ended up sleeping till 6:30. Got up, did some laundry and took a bath until Jon got home. Finally had some good quality time w/ my love.
Its so weird how it felt like we had more time when I worked nights. Now days go by and I feel like we barely see each other long enough to eat and go to bed. I miss my snuggle butt. And whats worse is the longer time goes by w/ us in passing we get lazy and just kinda go w/ it, and before we know it we realize we havent made time for each other. Lame.
Anyway, after work I am headed to Clear Lake so while I'm out there I'm gonna hang w/ my BFF. Yay. Ok Well I actually managed to get a semi decent post out.

Oh and look at my little "plant" I got for my desk at work, hes so cute and its solar powered. The "leaves" bounce up and down.

Mah Toof is hurty.

I have had a pretty terrible toothache since this weekend. And what is really frustrating is that I looked up my dental benefits, found a dentist, scheduled an appt and basically was given ibuprofen. I need 2 teeth pulled, a wisdom and a molar. I am so scared. But thats not what I was gonna say. I am so annoyed at the medical/dental field now. I am not a freaking drug addict. So give me some damn drugs, lol.
Seriously tho, I am so scared to have this done. Is it gonna hurt? Eeeeh.

Since I overslept yesterday I slept horrible last night. I think it was partially bc my tummy/tooth issue and I was worried that I'd over sleep again. Stupid. I hate that. So sleepy and its too early for this.

And now its getting busy. Gotta go...

Good Nights Sleep

Sorry about that last post. I have never reacted like that towards Mothers Day but I have been so emotional lately. I dont know if its just bc all the things happening. Or if its triggered by so many people close to me having babies. Who knows. But I'm over it now.

Anyway, I over slept and got to work 1.5 late so I have no time to blog. Just wanted to update really quick.

Have a good Monday.

Emotional Vomit

I am feeling very....sad. Emotional. And it sucks. It mostly sucks bc I don't know exactly what is triggering my sadness. I have a feeling I might know but I feel stupid. I feel like I wanna just lay in bed and cry. Its been like this for a few days. I am starting to be more and more emotional lately and I don't like it. I don't like not being happy.
Why am I not happy?
Ugh, that's a loaded question. Ok I'm gonna try and let it out here. Give me a minute.
I think it mostly family related. Most pressing feeling currently is Mothers Day. Why am I not a mother. I feel like such a failure for not having a baby yet. That's why we are here. Everyone is having kids. Logging into facebook is a nightmare for someone like me. Plus 99% of those pics are of the 3 less then 1 year olds in my family. Riley my brothers baby, Everett my cousin/bffs baby and Jace my other cousins baby. Damn it.
Then theres my gpa. Hes having heart issues. Hes ok. But for how long. And I can not imagine my life w/o him. Yes I know. I am so lucky to have had 30 years with him already but...I feel like I make him sad. He wants to see me "win" the battle against my weight. And for me to have a baby too. Altho he is old and therefore wants it done the "right way." So...gotta wait till I'm married. Which is what I want but I wouldn't regret it either way.
And as I've said before, I'm lonely. I am just too social of a person to be ok w/ never seeing my bff. And I don't know how to fix this.

And to Jon, no, I am not on my period. I am not PMS-ing.

I just want to be happy.
I'm tired of crying.

Slooooow Dooooown

It has been busy all morning so I dont really have time to update. But I do wanna say a few things.

• I responded to someone online about a general "fatty" comment made (not to me, just in general) and they actually apologized! WHAT!!? Crazyness.
• All the momma's got their Mothers Day Flowers yesterday. Yay!
• Starbucks messed up my order today. So annoying. It tasted awful.
• When Jon is sick he wants to lay right on me for some reason. 2 nights in a row I have woken up to him literally right in my face. lol
• Barbara isnt coming over on Sunday since Jon is sick.
• The drive home was a little better yesterday. But I think today is gonna be 3 times as bad.
• Yay its Friday.
• I love parking inside the garage.

Thats all I guess. TGIF.

Funny Purge

I Hate Traffic.

Jon is sick again. This time w/ a sore throat and fever. My poor baby :( He has been sick so much it seems like. He blames me! He says I bring the germs to him. Hmmm idk about that. I felt bad for him last night tho, I woke up around 12:45 w/ heartburn and he was practically on top of me. When I came back to bed I didnt want to wake him up, so I laid on my side and slid my arm under his head. He was sweating like crazy. But that means his fever broke. Probably from the ibuprofen.
This Saturday the grocery store chain we shop at is having a grand re-opening at one of the store close by. And they are having a crazy sale. I plan on going. Just for example they have Blue Bell ice cream 1/2 gallon for $1.99!! Thats normally $6-7 bucks. Holy crap. I probably wont buy any ice cream but that is just to show the deals.
The traffic this week has been insane. I was almost 20 mins later then normal yesterday. Thats crazy. I cant take it. I dont know if its bc I am staying till 2 or if its the conference going on at Reliant. Either way it sucks big fat monkey testicles.
Anyway, its busy early. Better wrap it up.

Good Night *winky face*

Well, my Tuesday was pretty good, what about yours?
Work was pretty steady until the 2nd half. Then they started undertime, but I made a promise to Jon that I would stay all week. Typically I leave 2-3 times a week about 1 or 2 hours early. But we need to build back the "buffer" we spent thru and until we do, Jon is stressed. Technically, we pay our bills early/on time, have enough left over for gas and groceries, and still have $$ to spend. Just no emergency $$ and thats no good. So anyway, I stayed. Since it was slow I tried to find things to occupy my time, when I remembered we finally charged up the Kindle and I brought it to work. I started reading the last book of 50 Shades of Gray again. I had started and finished the first 2 like months ago. Its a good book and it reminds me of Jon and I. And not the parts that I am sure you have HEARD about the book. He is a younger but hard working successful man, who is reserved and an introvert and very protective over the ones he loves. Hmm sounds a lot like Jon. Except Gray is a multi millionaire. Dang it!! lol :) Anyway, good book.
After suffering thru a full 8 hours (lol) I headed home to meet the electrician. But first I got to sit in traffic forever. Finally made it home and I changed into semi-comfy clothes. Since the guy was coming I couldnt get as comfy as I wanted. In other words, my bra was still on. When I talked to him at lunch he said he would call around 3. At 4 I called him. By 5 I figured he wasnt coming. I decide to free my "people" and not 1 min later he called saying he was on his way. Damn it!! lol But he came and he got my garage doors electricity. Woohoo! Its not done but it works. Yay. I am so happy. Like 2 things I wanted on my "dream house" list were garden tub - check and park in the garage (w/ automatic openers) - check! Oh happy days.
So even tho my day wasnt perfect it ended well, and I am happy :) I am ready for the weekend.

Skinnamarinky Dinky Dink

I dont really have anything to blog about today. Yesterday work was super busy all day. Came home and started dinner in the crockpot then watched some tv, took a nap, played around on the internet, found the bedroom set I want, finished up dinner. Jon came home, we ate, and then watched some TV together. Showed him the bedset and he liked it too, and then went to bed.
Ooooh fancy. lol
This weekend is mothers day. Barbara is coming for lunch on Sunday. I completely forgot. Oops. Well I need to call my mom and see what she wants to do. I figured we could do something Saturday. I dont know what I wanna do tho. Blah.
Meh, I'm bored.
Tuesdays suck :)

Rag-a-muffin

Seriously?!? Its Monday already. You people make me sick! I know you miss my posting but rushing the weekend just to get a new entry from me! HOW RUDE!

lol

No, but seriously, weekends go by too fast. When my alarm went off I was whining. I dont wanna! Its doesnt help that I didnt get to sleep in either day. Saturday Jon wanted me to wake up w/ him while he was getting ready, even tho I hadn't gone to bed till 3am. Then yesterday Jon woke up at 6:45 and yelled "Baby you're late!" I was like uh no its Sunday. Ugh what a dummy. lol

So Friday I did nothing. Came home and took a nap. Saturday I cleaned. Super cleaned the bathrooms. Sweep/mopped the floors in the whole house. Took Chance to the groomers. He was so far gone, they had to shave him. Not bald but pretty short. They said he was too matted. Hmm. Idk. Oh well. We can start over. I am just bad about keeping his appt bc he looks cute when hes a rag-a-muffin.
Sunday we did nothing. Jon literally stayed in bed most the day. He was just having one of those days he said. Ok then. He did get outta bed around 5 and we did the dishes that were driving me crazy. Then we watched Django Unchained. That was a good movie. And then we went to bed once laundry was finished.
It was an ok weekend.

I have been having some pain the past couple days. Or I should say I have been really sore. I dont know why. But it sucks...
Ugh ok, lets get this Monday over with...

Ideas, Lots of Ideas

OMG yaaaaay its Friday! Not like I am doing anything exciting. Chance needs to be groomed and I need to clean. Thats about it. All my friends at work watch some show and they talk about it allllll the timmmmme so they want me to watch it on On Demand if available. So I might do that...we'll see.

The a/c lady came out yesterday. After checking everything she said it was the thermostat. So she put a new fancy one. Its digital and comes pre-programmed for optimum energy saving. Thats awesome. Of course the cold front came thru and we didnt even need the a/c.

I've been thinking of ideas for something sweet for me and Jons 1 year. I know its still 4 months away (omg only 4 months away!!) but I wanna make something homemade as something small but meaningful. Sorry readers, I wont be able to tell ya what it is since he reads my bloggy blog, LOL.

Hmmm, I think thats all for now. Pretty boring post, but I kept getting interrupted.
Have a good weekend.

This Damn House

Yesterday started off a pretty good day. I got to be dispatch at work, which means I only answer the "hotline" and not appointment calls. Then when my brother got to work our boss had him sit w/ me for training. So we sat around talking in between calls. Made the day go by quicker. We should do that more often, lol.
After work I went grocery shopping to get a few misc things to get us thru the week. It was so hot when I was done. It felt like the a/c was broken in the grocery store, then my car has leather seats, I was dying. By the time I got home I couldnt wait to crank down the ac. And boy was the house HOT. I put the groceries down, let Chance out and then checked the thermostat...
hmmm...
It was like 90 but the temp was set on 80...
hmmm...
Ok so I turn it down, unload the groceries, change my clothes, start dinner in the crockpot, then I go pay rent. And I am sooooo freaking hot. I'm sweating. Even my freaking legs are sweating. Get back home and its still hot...
da fuq...
I go in the office for awhile trying to cool off. But around 6 I wanna make Jons banana pudding. So I go back in the living room and I swear its hotter. So I call Jon, we check the breaker, nope. Turn off the air for awhile, hoping its just frozen, nope. And while doing all this I am getting hotter and hotter. My body heats up so quickly. I call the management companys guy and hes calling a/c guys and Jons calling back, and I am trying to make the pudding and the rest of dinner...
AGHUGHGHGHUGHHHH!

The repair guy is coming today 3-5. After a cold front comes thru with rain and our roof leaks.
Shesh...

April Showers Bring May Flowers...maybe

Hey Its May!! Cant believe it.

Today is an espresso shot in my frappacino kinda morning. Late night last night w/ my love. So being extra tired tonight is a good thing. Jon is finally feeling back to normal and so am I. I missed my little snuggle monkey, lol.

The roofer came yesterday. When he was doing the walk thru inside he said he thought the leaks were coming from the chimney and the skylight. He then went out and actually checked the roof. I was interested in what he found but he never came and knocked. I thought he was going to. Maybe he rang the doorbell. Which doesnt work. Oh well.

Jon is stressing over money again. Which is frustrating bc then I stress about money. lol He does this about once a month. Usually around the 1st, since thats the biggest bill. But when I do the calculations everything seems fine. Yeah it will be close but he gets paid everyweek so we will be fine.

Whoa. I can feel the espresso kicking in. My heart is quicker then normal. Heh. Awesome. I used to get 2 shots everyday, but I quit when I started feeling like I was getting an ulcer.

OK Happy hump day.
<3 R